Sitting out sucks

Tuesday night is the night for darts. Our sub needed his last week in before the end of December. Yesterday was the last night we play in December. I had not sat out this season. I hate to sit. I find it very difficult to watch my team play without playing. I am the captain. I sat last night. The team one 8 - 5 without me, but it seemed like I could have made this tally higher. They struggled with outs, four to five turns to take a game out happened at least three games. I was ready to leave, but stuck it out. One of my players challanged me to some games after they were finished. After 5 games, I had 4 wins to his one. I really should have played last night.